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I was bored and havent updated in a while.. so here goes!! [11 Jul 2005|11:24am]
[ mood | Wide Awake. ]

Wow, this summer has been great.. Words cant even begin to describe it.!.

I went to the beach on Friday and i came home Tuesday during the week of the 4th.. It was Awesome.

{(Tuesday)}

Then that nite Anna came over and we went swimming and then she spent the nite with me.

Wednesday- Anna and I went and played tennis and went out to eat and then we went to the mall and saw a bunch of stuff that we wanted.. Details Later.!. And Then Anna spent the nite with me again.

Thursday- My wonderful Miss Lauren came home. Anna and I went over to Bobby's house and chilled with him, jeff, and Rob. They are great, then we came home and went swimming and ate Oishi! and we just talked. and stayed up to like 4 in the morning. That nite i stayed at her house.

Friday- Anna and I went swimming and then we went to Concord Mills and to Steak and Shake.. FuuN Day!! :] And then we came home and went swimming again and then she spent the nite with me again. We just got on the computer and talked to some ppl and then layed in the bed and took an ole trip down memory lane.

Saturday- We went shopping and then we baby sat our neightbors and Anna spent the nite with me again and we just chilled and talked to Bobby!

Sunday- We went out to eat and then we rode on the 4 wheeler and talked and then we cleaned her room and made plans for today.. So we made a banana pudding, lemonade, cookies, a turkey sandwich, hamburgers and some more cookies.. They were all good!~ Then she spent the nite with me again and we are going shopping today and some other places ooh yeah and we want to go check out the NEW vera bradleys...Love

Update Later, I promise!

Lily Ann

Im Me CarolinaGrl0145

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[17 Jun 2005|08:16pm]

We are BAD kids...

That is Lauren and Me.

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Me and Laurens conversation yesterday. [09 Jun 2005|11:25am]
[ mood | waiting on him. ]

Lauren: I look like a BUMBLE BEE and I sting like one too.
Me: I sting like a WASP.
haha lauren..lov ya gurl.

Wow, summer is going by so fast :[

Me and Lauren have been together almost everyday this summer. We hang out always with Bobby and Jeff. no suprise there. lol

 

This week me and Lauren went shopping and we worked somewhere and we drove around on the golf cart all freakin day long. Lauren almost wecked but she came out ok in the end.. meaning, (no wrecks_)

 

Love to the lovelys♥

 

Miss Lily Ann

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My weekend.... [06 Jun 2005|12:21am]
[ mood | Not to swift. ]

Thursday- I went to the movies with Bobby, Jeff, Emily and Anna. We saw The Longest Yard. and i had sun except for a few mishaps after the movie.

Friday- I stayed home and then went shopping later that day and then went out to eat.

Saturday- I had a party and it was a blast. Then i drove around the neighborhood im my cousins new 05' Mustang. i totally love it :] Then me, jeff, bobby, lauren, ryan, and kristin, layed on my bed and chilled and talked about stuff. I love them kidos. Then everybody left but Ryan and Bobby and Lauren.. We had an ice fight and went for a stroll around the neighborhood. FUn StuFf. Then Ryan left and me, bobby, and lauren had a whip cream fight..it was hilarious. lol Bobby left and we chilled in his jeep. Then Lauren spent the nite and we watched movies.

Sunday- Me and lauren woke up and got ready then went out to eat at Chilis and then we chilled for a lil at her house and then went shopping. We got some really cute stuff..Then we came home for a while and Jeff came over and we chilled, had a pillow fight, and then went and got some ice cream. Wow, Jeff had a lead foot. (_lol_) He made it all the way from Tonys to Mt. Holly in less than 8 minutes. Then we came back to my house and talked to jeff and bobby and right now we are currently pulling an all niter. wish us luck.

Lov Ya

If u wanna talk im me on CarolinaGrl0145.

Hope yall are having a awesome summer!~

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..Wow..havent updated in a while.. [02 Jun 2005|05:37pm]
Lets see this summer is going good.

I have been babysitting this kid and he is no trouble but he speaks his own language.

I also was the secetary at Belmont Storage and it was except i kinda broke the golf cart, but we wont tell anybody.

Lets see i have been hanging out a lot with lauren and she is a a great friend.. Bobby is awesome. Jeff- We talk now, thats all i can say.

I miss all of my other friends.

well i write a longer one later bc lauren and bobby are on their way over here and Jeff might stop by.

Lov Ya

Call me anytime.
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..Summer Nights... [25 May 2005|09:57pm]
This summer has been great so far.

I got my permit

I turned 15

I got a babysitting gig.

Ooh and tonite, i went to the movies with Bobby, Jeff, and Anna. had a grate time ... :]


Have a grate SUMMMER!!!

Lily Ann
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Summer Time* [22 May 2005|02:28pm]
[ mood | Happy ]

This is just a little quiz i took.


What You Really Think Of Your Friends



Laura is your soulmate.
You truly love Jeff.
You consider Rusty your true friend.
You know that Lauren is always thinking of you.
You'll remember Bobby for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Kristin is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.
You secretly think that Alex is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.
You secretly think that Brittany is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Brittany changes lovers faster than underwear.
You secretly think Tyler is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Tyler has a hidden internet romance.


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My Goodbye [20 May 2005|12:09pm]
[ mood | 2 hours till Summer ]

This is for all my friends that are leaving this year and to all the ones that are staying..

Highland School of Technology

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat chorus

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Repeat chorus 3x


Im gonna miss all the seniors next year..Good luck in college!!

<33 Lily Ann

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No subject!! [16 May 2005|08:31pm]
[ mood | Eww!! ]

I hate freshman drama..(even though i am a freshman)

Grow up and stop starting stuff.

<33 Lov Ya

-Lily Ann

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Some QuizZes ive took. [16 May 2005|05:55pm]
[ mood | Bored ]

Are you still in lovee?

Created by KaTiZzLe and taken 75 times on bzoink!

Do you have a bf/gf?No
If you dont, do you wish you did?Yes
Have u ever fallen in love?Yes
Did he/she feel the same?Never told them
Do u think about them when u hear the song they dedicated/sang 2 u?Yes
Do you cry when u think about that special one?Sometimes
Do you get jealous when u see them with other guys/girls?Sometimes
Do you feel that if you stayed together, you would have lasted forever?Dont no
Are you still friends?Yes
Would it hurt you to much if thats all you could be?Yes
Do you think about them non-stop?Yes
Do you pray that god will make them love you again?Yes
if they hurt you, are you ashamed that you still lovee them so much?Yes
Do u think the fortunes/IM thingsthat say ull get back together are true?No

Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!



A short story about you

Created by shinikami and taken 36117 times on bzoink!

Name
Current time
Current weather
One day, you were walking down the street when you saw two guys making out.
And so you fainted.
But then, you got hit by a car.
And it turned out to be a nightmare.
So now you are dead.



Create a Quizlet | Search Quizlets | Go to bzoink!

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..Things will always change, no matter how hard i try.. [16 May 2005|04:55pm]
This post is gonna be short and sweet!!

A lot of things have changed since my last update, which has been a while.

WoW. school will be out in 4 days but we have to take exams. :[

This weekend was GRaND:

Friday- Lauren came home with me and we jumped on the trampoline and hung out and then i went to a thing at Alex's house and i had a grate time.. We played football, basketball, and we had a truth circle. Fun stuff, right there! lol

Saturday- I babysitted Abbey and them i went shopping and got some Ralph Lauren Polos and a purse..Then i stayed the nite with Victoria and we went out to eat at O'Charleys with some old friends.

Sunday- Went to church went to the mall and then i worked on a project.

A lot of things have changed at school the past few weeks:

1. Me and Spencer went out for like 3 days and then we broke-up.
2. We are no longer friends with Holly. because she runs her mouth to much.
3. Me and Jeff are talking, again.
4. Me and Lauren are friends again, and i have had sOo much fun hanging out with her.

Sry this entry is sOo short..

Heres a few shout outs till next time!!

Allyson- Gah gurl, im gonna miss u so much this summer, we have to hang out...Dont worry about everything with him, they are just jealous of what yall two had. U find that one true friend and then they go and mess it up, dont u just want to hurt them? Well u have to help me plan my party. Lov ya..<33

Lauren- Im glad that we are friends, once again..and i had a blast at ur house and i hope that u had fun at mine..but we have to hang out a lot this summer..We have had tons of fun jumping on the trampoline and thanks for doing my layout..lov ya.

I No I Left A Lot Out, Sry!!

<33 Lily Ann
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..Long Time.. [10 May 2005|09:55pm]
[ mood | Lucky!! ]

* °oO º(`'·.¸(`'·.¸ ¸.·'´)¸.·'´)º O o*

»·´¨`»* *Been a While!* *«·´¨`«

*o O º(¸.·'´(¸.·'´ `'·.¸)`'·.¸)º O o*

A lot of things have changed since my last post and I will have to get u updated.

I will fill in all the Gaps later, right now I don’t have time and the energy to do it.

* °oO º(`'·.¸(`'·.¸ ¸.·'´)¸.·'´)º O o*

»·´¨`»* *Love 2 Everyone!* *«·´¨`«

*o O º(¸.·'´(¸.·'´ `'·.¸)`'·.¸)º O o*

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...WoW...I had my chance, but i blew it.. [29 Apr 2005|01:25pm]
[ mood | Slowly, falling to pieces.. ]

Well the trip was really great even though I was sick the whole time and i still am but i am slowly getting better...

♥I will go into detail later on another post♥

Today:

English- we watched Romeo and Juliet and ate food
Music Appreciation- we had a test and watched a movie
Science- We worked on a lot of papers
History- havent got there yet but we have a test.

Today after school i am going to Merle Norman and then im going out with some friends. Shouts if u want to go with us!!!

"Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the stars refuse to shine.
Out of the back you fall in time
Somehow find you and I collide.."

Today had been a good day so far even though a few things happened last night, but its nuthing bad because it wont be in effect till next year at school. So, at least i have some time to adopt to the change but i dont really care because its his choice. We talked about it for a long time last night and it made me wanna cry but i no that ill be okay, without him.

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending.

He said that i had my chance and i blew it and i was like okay....But whatever..Maybe i did because i never took the chance...but, who cares?? Not me!!

I am tired of pretending that everything is okay when it's not..I cant handle much more of this because it is slowly tearing me to pieces (and allyson says she is very worried about me) I will be okay though as long as what me and HIM talked about.. Well if i blew my chance then obviosly i didnt want it that bad..

He was really nice but his friends are totally making matters worse. I dont care if they are helping me but they need to mind their own business. because they are the ones who messed it up in the first place...

Ally- He wont be smiling when u get done with him..lol (that did not sound right)Thanks for everything and dont worry about me ill be okay..Lov Ya Tons.

Jeff- Dont worry about what he says bc I have moved on and no u didnt break my heart, like he says u did...Make the right decision..

Ashley and Alex- Many fun times with Yall....TeePee..lol and the bird.

Shannon- I wont to see his shorts if they are that cool and thanks for doing my journal for me..Lov Ya Tons and sont give up on him yet!!!

More shout outs later, not really in the mood right now!!

Lov Ya,

Lily Ann

<33 Comment if u have and help on what I should do..

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Love this Song. [29 Apr 2005|01:23pm]
[ mood | Normal ]

Sick and tired of this world
There's no more air
Trippin over myself
Goin nowhere

Waiting, Suffocating,
No direction, And I took a dive and...

On the way down
I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you

I've been wonderin why
It's only me
Have you always been inside
Waiting to breathe
It's alright, sunlight on my face
I wake up and yeah, I'm alive

Cause on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And i won't forget the way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through




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But I held onto you

I was so afraid, of going under
But now, the weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no, nothing

Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
Down, down, down
You're all I needed
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
You're all i needed

And I won't forget the way you loved me

All that I wanted...
All that I needed... now

On the way down
I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you
But I held onto you
But I held onto you

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..need to update.. [26 Apr 2005|08:22pm]
[ mood | At Anna's ]

The trip was great..

Longer entry later tomorrow hopefully.

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..I feel awful.. [20 Apr 2005|01:18pm]
[ mood | I feel like crap..i aching. ]

Happy 1 month anniversary Allyson and Josh.. Yall make a great couple. and i wish yall the best!!

 

I feel like crap but i still have to go to state competition to night..i dont even feel like going my head hurts so bad...but i have to go though..   Ally says i have to go..

 

Post all the details later.....

<33 Lily Ann♥

Call the cell while im gone cause i will need some one to talk too... 704-747-1002

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...A lot to write... [19 Apr 2005|01:29pm]
[ mood | Tired of it all* ]

I am so tired of all this drama..drama..and more drama. Is this all we freshman know? Is that the only word in our vocabulary, i hope not.. Because then that wouldnt' be saying to much about us but who cares..It is starting to remind me of middle school. I want this to be a year to remember not bc of the drama but i want to remember it for all of the good times with my friends and even (cant believe im saying this) the ones that simply urk me but its mainly people who dont even no me and my friends they just spread stuff because they have nuthing better to do than to ruin others peoples lifes..

My life is great, though i have to admit but it could be a whole lot better if all of the drama would stop. I mean yes i do talk but i dont say sumthing and say that i didn't say it the next day. I cant take much more but i will if i have to.. I just wish that i could start all over with everybody including jeff and bobby, but i will never get the chance too...

I am so thankful though for everyone that has been there for me through the good and the bad times, no matter what life may bring, yall are always there..

I WiSh that girls werent such drama queens and that guys weren't such loSers.

i am a teenage girl surrounded by drama
i wonder why i let little things bother me so much
i hear people's frustration all around me
i see everybody's problems unravel at my feet
i want to just live MY life
i am a teenage girl surrounded my drama

i pretend that my problems were as simple as finding the right outfit to wear
i feel like everybody's problems keep turning into mine
i touch my face as it bows down in confusion
i worry that one day i won't be able to take it anymore
i cry when i realize how many problems are actually mine
i am a teenage girl surrounded by drama

i understand a world without problems is nearly impossible
i say that i should live my life as best as i can
i dream of a world where i can mind my own business
i try not to get in the middle of everybody's problems
i hope that one day everything won't be so complicated
i am a teenage girl surrounded by drama...

Drama is life with a piece of everyone else's involved.


Ally- Thanks gurl, so much u have always been there for me i hope that u always will b no matter what happens and what life might bring. I no that we have been through some good times and some bad times but we have pulled thorugh all of them and they dont keep us down for long. but really i am over him and they need to stop saying that i aint..Even though we have all been thorugh the same drama it all works out in the end no matter who starts it. I am glad that we have became friends and good luck with Josh yall make a great and a cute couple. Love Ya

Shannon- Thanks for being there for me 24/7.Ur always there for me thorugh thick and thin no matter how rough the going is. I love ya tons and i wouldnt trade u in for anything and i never wont u to change. Good luck with Chris and i cant believe he ate my gum..Eww ♥

Anna- I love you to death but i could take u any day..just kidding my arm is like bruised and thanks for everything u do for me.

Love to all

I will update this one tomorrow because i have to go to history..

♥-Lily Ann-♥


Dont talk crap about people because you dont know whats in store for you. So many things could happen: You could become great friends with that person; you could fall in love with them; or they could get in a horrible accident and all you and everyone else can remember, is that all you had to say was horrible things about them... and now you feel bad??

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hmmm... [14 Apr 2005|11:41am]
[ mood | ♥Happy♥ ]

Today is better than most because i got everything worked out with Jeff and all that stuff..

 

Ill post a longer one later..

 

<33 Lily Ann

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..Today is Better.. [13 Apr 2005|12:53pm]
[ mood | Slowly Recovering ]

Sry about yesterday, i was just having a bad day but it got better by the end of the day.

I had to find out some stuff before i jump to conclusions.... I am sOO tired of everything but my life is better...Much better than it was last week...

HeReS:: ThE:: DeTaIlS::

Wow, things change fast..
Lately Jeff hasnt been wanting to talk to me because of some crap that some ppl have stirred up... When none of it is true and it makes me just want to break down and cry. But Jeff shouldn't have lied to me even though we have has our ups and downs this year. But i no that we will be nuthing anymore and maybe thats for the best..but i liked him sOO Soo much but i like some one else now and they are a much better person and they dont listen to friends and what they say about their friends. So he hasn't been talking to me the last few days and then the other day he saw me in the parking lot and was like (or at my least my sources say) There's Lily lets go say to her. and thats y things change so fast because one day he want talk to me and then one day he will. I am sick and tired of his little games.

This weekend was great..

I cant wait till this weekend bc i am reading home with Laura and Alex aand we r going to her house to eat and some more ppl r coming over then we are going to the Highland Talent Show.

But i will write more later...

♥Lov to Every0ne♥

<33 Comment needed

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[12 Apr 2005|12:55pm]
[ mood | Infuriated ]

Today has, by far, been the worst day of my life.

 

People need to stop telling ppl stuff that i never said..They need to mind their own business.

 

But i dont care anymore!

Lily Ann

 

<33 Comment if u no what im talking about??

 

 

 

 

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..*This weekend*.. [11 Apr 2005|12:04pm]
[ mood | good ]

Omg, this weekend was freaking awesone!!

Umm...Here is a brief summary:

Friday afternoon and night- I had to drive for drivers ed and i think that i did well but then it started raining really hard and i was like freaking out. but everything else was good.. After that my mom took me to the mall and i caught up there with Alex, Ally, Shannon, and Ashley and then we got some food and left and then went to her house. We listened to some music and then me and Ally laid in Alex's closet and locked our selves in and she talked to Josh on my phone while i talked to practically the whole baseball team on Shannon's phone. It was so funny because like every 5 minutes we would talk to a different baseball player because they were all at Spencer's House. I talked to Rusty and i dont even no who that is. Then the baseball players did sumthing really stupid at Spencer's house and they all got busted..Haha..thats what they get!!. Then we stayed up till like 5 in the morning but Ally fell asleep at like 11. We all watched movies and then we just talked about some people that we liked or thought was cute and then somebody started talking about Oreo and that was the funniest thing ever and Alex's cat was named Oreo and i was like omg what are the chances of that? Then when 5 am came rolling around we all fell asleep and then we woke up at about 8. It was a blast..

Saturday- We all woke up and watched some movies and then we all got ready, took us forever and then me and Alex tied our legs together with a belt and we started walking and running around her nieghborhood. We didnt fall but like once.. lol then we all walked around the pond and saw the goats and walked in the nasty mud.Yuck!!! Then we came in for lunch and ate then Me, Ashley, and Alex walked around her neighborhood. So fun but it was really hot and we saw horses and then Tyler and Cameron called my cell and Alex answered and then i called him back and it was weird ooh and Laura called to about the whole movie deal but that didnt work out. Then we all got ready, finished products and then we went to the movies and saw "Guess Who" The movie was good and we had a great time but the whole time Spencer was like trying to get me dirty and then we were for like the whole movie trying to get each other dirty and he kept poking me. it was fun though but then he was suppose to tell me sumthing really important and he diddnt so now i am clueless.

Sunday- I went to church, the mall, and then i went over to Victorias and then i went driving for like 2 hrs. at Brookside.♥

Lov To: Allyson, Ashley, Alex, Shannon, Kristin, Alex, Laura, Ashley, Whiteny, Josh, Spencer, Tyler, Cameron, Anna, Kyle, Andrew, Jeff, Mac, Brandon, Rusty, Bennett, Goose, Paul, and many many more.

ILL POST LATER WITH PICTURES..Just so Lovely..

Ally- I hope that ur situation works out, but i hope that u feel better..Lov ya!!!

People need to stop stealing my crap..

Ashley- "Ashley is Awesome," Shannon- "Really?" Ashley- "Yeah, says the bird." HaHa, loved the bird.                 

Shannon- Love without a solution!♥

Alex- Omg. those guys that would have gotten Ally so bad and your daddy's cream shave smells really good. We should have so done it.

 

Lov to All that wasnt listed above..

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..Bored... [08 Apr 2005|01:39pm]
[ mood | Happy ]

I no i just updated but i have nuthing better to do in Science..

Shannon- Haha, change of plans..these are better cause all them theres wont be there but then again they will... I wanted him to come...ooh, im sad..♥ We have to take some pics for my journal cause my entries are sOo boring without pictures and i dont no how to put them on here. Lov Ya tons

Allyson- Dhed, lol--i no that he isnt like that and neither is Tommy.but it was funny and no u no that i cant read... Some ppl read between the lines way to much. Oreo does it all the time and it is sOo annoying.

If u want to no who oreo is then leavca comment? and i will tell ya if my sources allow me to.

Love to Anna, Allyson, Kayla, Shannon, Kristin, Alex W., Alex R., Ashley, Laura, Hannah, Summer, Emilee, Victoria, Abbey, Addia, Josh, Tommy, Mac, Brandon, Spencer, Matt F,, Jeff, Chris, Joey, David, Evan, Zack, Ryan, Kevin, Spencer, Walter, Tyler, Ryan G., Bennett, Goose, Paul Chris and Brittany and Holly

<33 Lily Ann

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[08 Apr 2005|01:37pm]
[ mood | Can't wait till tonite♥ ]

I want to say thank you to all my friends that left comments on my friends only entry.. It made me feel so much better and i no that she is jealous and crap but it still urkes me and all that.

Alex, Kristin, Allyson, Shannon, Ashley, Alex, Alex W,, Bennett, Goose, and possibly Paul- Cant wait till this weekend.. Even though we had a few self-invitees..lol


I will be posting pictures soon, so look for em..

Loving to the Ladies and even the Fellaz♥

 

Omg, im driving with the driver's ed teacher today..im so nervous..what if i wreck?

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..Omg.. [07 Apr 2005|05:10pm]
[ mood | Happy 4 Shannon ]

He likes Shannon..

Omg, gurl i am so happy for you..

Lov ya tons and cant wait till this weekend.

 

<33 Lily Ann

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Read this [05 Apr 2005|01:37pm]
[ mood | heart-broken♥ ]

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you hadn't or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest to say. Don't be afraid tho tell someone you love them. If you do they might break your heart... but if you don't,you might break theirs.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that person was to afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are to afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid...afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But everytime we tell a lie... the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had. No one waits forever...
What would you do...
'What would you do if everytime you wanted someone they would never be there?
'What would you do if you best friend died tomorrow and you never got the chance to tell them how you felt?
'What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
'What would you do if everytime you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

When you love someone say it. Say it loud. Say it right away, or the moment just passes you by and you may never get the chance again.

People live, but people die.

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./° Horrible°\. [05 Apr 2005|01:29pm]
[ mood | Devestated ]

Today has been awful day... Horrible..But now its getting better, SLOWLY!!

A bunch of us are going to the movies on Friday, comment if u want to go....

<33 Lily Ann

This quote is undescribable:

Come on Rodney, she's got Gucci handbags, Gucci shoes... The woman is so picky, open up your eyes, Rodney. What I mean is that, if you were a handbag, what type of handbag would you be? Would you be a Gucci, Rodney? The woman needs a Gucci man. Did you hear that? A Gucci man. Are you a Gucci man Rodney? Go home and think about that. Stand before a mirror and ask yourself several times "Am I a Gucci man?"

Will she reject you? Of course she will unless you give her a solid reason not to. It is necessary for her to reject, to create her own collection of rejections. Not only is she picky but she needs to reaffirm that to herself and rejection is a means of accomplishing that.

Come on Rodney lets go back to the farm.

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*..Here we go again..* [04 Apr 2005|01:36pm]
[ mood | *bouncing back to him* ]

I THINK THAT I LIKE HIM AGAIN, BUT IM NOT SURE..

Shannon- I dont want to go through this again..but i will if i have to..Help Me.

 

Ally- Haha, BeefChugger

 

<33 Lily Ann

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*..SpRiNg BrEaK..* [02 Apr 2005|12:09pm]
[ mood | Missing Him** ]

 Im just a small girl

Here is a summary of my Spring Break:

Thursday night: Ashley and Shannon rode home with me and we went to bangles and bag, merle norman, and then we went to the mall. In Dillards we had this great idea to try on the old lady hats. ((Pictures are in the previous post)) We took lots of pictures and i got a purse and so did Shannon whils Ashley got three bracelets. Then we went home and we got annoyed by some ppl on the internet.Then Shannon left and we took Ashley home.♥

Friday- I went shoppng at Concord Mills, Pineville Village, and then Carolina Place Mall and i got tons of stuff. Then  i went and spent the night with Karen and we stayed up till like 5 in the morning and it was great. I had so much fun with her and she is the coolest. 

Saturday- We went shopping again and i got some shoes and a purse and then i went to Victoria's house and i spent the night with her..

Sunday- since it was Easter i had to go to church and spend time with my family. Bummer.. (( Anna was wanting me to go to some party with her but i didnt bc she figured that i probably already had plans with some others.))

Monday- I slept in late and then i went to the mall and did nuthing but i did get a polo to go with my american eagle capris.

Tuesday- I went to Karens again and i jung out with Josh for a while.. Other than that i went home and watched tv.

Wednesday- I slept in late again, about 10:00 and then Anna came over after drivers ed and borrowed one of my Vera Bradley's and im going to borrow her chocolate toggle tote tomorrow.  Then we were going to go walking but it was to late and my mom wouldnt let us go. so that plan got demolished. 

Thursday- I went to the orthodonist and then i was suppose to meet Anna, Josh and some other people at Subway for lunch at 1:30 but i went to the wrong subway and my mom couldnt take me to the other one bc it was raining and she wouldnt be able to make it in the time frame that we had.

Friday- Anna and Abbey had spent the night at my house and we watched Fat Albert and Raise Your Voice. Grate Movies. Then we stayed up till like 4 in the morning and then Anna had to leave at 8 because she had drivers ed. I also went down to Anna with Abbey to watch Love or Basletbal and Zeb, Zack, and Brian were there playing video games!!♥

Today- I stayed once again at Karens house and we are going to make some cupcakes and then we are possibly going purse shopping.

If u want to make plans just give me a ring..

Allyson- Good luck with Josh and im always here for u no matter what..Lov ya 2 PieceS♥

Anna- I always have fun when ur around even though we pick sometimes..but its always fun..and yes u are a way better driver than me. and we can share Vera Bradleys.

Shannon- Girl, i lov u sooooo much u just dont no how much. Had so much fun with u and ash at the mall and the pictures were great and sry i couldnt do anything this Spring break.but now this weekend i can bc my bro and dad will be on a 4 day field trip.alright. and u better not 4 get that i have a boar who eats pancakes.

Jeff- I am glad that we have patched things up and that everything is sorta better between us..I just wish that everything could go back to last semester.

I have many more shout outs but this entry is way too long already.

Lov to the Ladies: Allyson, Anna, Shannon, Ashley, Kristin, Alex W., Alex R., Laura, Lauren, Miranda, Karen, Alexa, Summer, Britt, Holly, Madeline, Ashley W., Whitney, Abbey, Victoria and i no i forgot some.

Lov to the fellaz: Mac, Josh, Aaron, Jesee, Ryan, Sean, Bennett, Mark, Mike, Cory, Josh, Ethan, Zack, Zeb, Brian, Taylor, Brandon, Jeff, Cameron, Matt M., Bobby K.,...and many more.

<33 Lily Ann

living in a big world.

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Time for a change..* [25 Mar 2005|08:23pm]
[ mood | content ]

Im getting my haircut soon...I need a change, something different would be nice.

If u have any suggestions......tell me

<33 Comment with Ideas.

<33 Lily Ann

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A night out at the mall with Ashley and Shannon! [25 Mar 2005|06:24pm]

Pictures*Collapse )

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[23 Mar 2005|01:42pm]
[ mood | Bored!! ]

I Love This Quote:

 

Have you ever felt like
all you had was gone?
That your heart was broken,
and you couldn't go on?

Have you ever really
wanted to die?
To end your life,
so your tears would dry?

My life was like a tunnel,
and he was the light,
he made my smile,
so real, so bright.

When things got tough,
he was always there,
for once in my life,
someone did care.

He was a gift,
sent from up above,
for the first time in my life,
I actually felt loved.

He was like an angel,
sent to rescue me,
he was my everything,
my love, my destiny.

I stopped the crying,
his love made me quit,
I never thought
I would stop doing it.

I have no idea,
what he found in me,
but he always saw something
no one else could see.

He didn't care
about popularity,
he didn't choose looks
over personality.

He was the only one
who loved me for who I am,
he thought I was unique and special,
- he didn't want me to be like them.

But now that he's gone,
the light has turned to dark,
I am slowly re-creating
every tiny tear.

Without him here,
I have no life,
only a friend,
and that friend is the kleenex.

It has come back,
the pain, the sorrow,
I don't wish to see
a new tomorrow.

Lying.
Trying.
Crying.
I'm dying.

' Time heals all wounds, '
that is such a lie,
time will never heal my heart,
and therefore I will die.

They say you can't love someone
in such young years,
then give me an explanation
to why I shed all these tears?

Don't say I deserve someone better,
I just want to be with you,
no one will ever take your place,
and I know that you love me too.

But the distance between us,
is keeping us apart,
why must love always
end with a broken heart?

True love survives everything,
so why don't you want to try?
Please don't leave me all alone,
I have an unanswered ' why? '

Why can't I stop feeling
the way I do?
I know I'll never find
another you.

I would give everything,
just to see your face,
you are my heart,
something no one will replace.

So remember this,
I will love you forever,
even if it means
we're not together.

Any girl would be lucky,
to have a guy like you,
but no one will ever
love you in the special way I do.

Maybe to you,
it wasn't a big thing,
but remember this,
you were my everything.


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This is all true. It might not sound like a big deal, but he was the only good thing about my life, and now that he's gone, I don't know what to do.

 

<33 Lily Ann

 

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**...**Fighting Boredom**...** [22 Mar 2005|01:47pm]
[ mood | Bored!! ]

OMG, i am so bored and i am so ready for SPRING BREAK. I cant wait to go to Gaffeny,:]

I love u, u love me.
Were a happy family.
With a great big hug-
and a kiss from me 2 u.
Wont u say u love me too.

We have been singing that all day in Science. Me and Allyson that is of course.

Last night was great-

I went to Texas roadhouse and i had a great time and then i went to the bowling alley to pick up my bro and i saw some of my friends that i hadn't seen in like forever. ♥ I heart them sOo much.

Then i went home and got on the interent but i didnt really talk to nebody because i didnt feel like it. Well thats about all i have to say about that.

♥!!LoVe is a BaTtLeFiElD!!♥

Allyson- good luck with Josh and cant wait to the bonfire party thing on Thursday. The napkins at lunch and then i couldnt even get the tea ooh and Chocolate and the big smile.haha :]

Brittany- 2 days in a row, wow thats a record.

Holly- Im so freaking hyper and i want to go home and go to bed..lol

Kristin- U still have to show him to me because i dont no who it is and i really want to no. lol. disgustes.. haha... That play was great.♥ Grease Lightning. WoW!! And that picture was a close up and it stinks. Cant want till the Clemson game with Tyler this summer. We are taking a road trip and then we are car pooling next year.

Ashley- Cant wait till the Ryan Cabrera concert..it's gonna be so great, we need to get some more ppl to go with us.. Erik Hestor is his twin but u need to meet him. Lov Ya

Love to Everyone.♥!

Sry this post was sOo short but i dont feel like typing anything.

<33 Lily Ann

CAN'T WAIT TILL SPENCER'S PARTY THIS THURSDAY NIGHT. GONNA BE Soo much fun Allyson. Wonder why?¿?

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*..Gotta love this thing..* [21 Mar 2005|01:32pm]
[ mood | Touched..♥ ]

Are you tired of all those sissy \"friendship\" poems that always sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that really speaks to true friendship:

1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile - I will know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.

6. When you are confused - I will use little words.

7. When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

This is my oath...I pledge it till the end. Why? You may ask.

Because you are my friend.


Remember: A good friend will help you move. A really good friend will
help you move a body. Let me know if I ever need to bring a shovel.

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..Leave ur name... [20 Mar 2005|07:58pm]
[ mood | Content with myself* ]

If u leave ur name then i will do the following:

1. Tell u what i think about u
2. Why i like or dont like u?
3. One word that describes u
4. One neagative aspect about u? Only if u want me tOo.

SoO leave a comment with ur name and then come back to see what i put :)

Lov to all the Lovelys

<33 Lily Ann

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.:*A Clear Conscience*:. [19 Mar 2005|02:36pm]
[ mood | Where did I go wrong? ]

Im not blaming anybody…

"I'm gonna stop looking back start moving on, learn how to face my fears, love with all of my heart, make my mark, I want to leave something here"

I just want to apologize for my entry yesterday, because:

I was mean to some ppl that I love

I went overboard on the lashing out thing

I regret some of the things that I put in there

I was way to hard on Jeff

I really regret putting that entry in, but I need to express myself.

But this time I really think that I am over Jeff, for good. But if sometime in the near future, he likes me then “YES” I will like him back. But I want to be friends right now because I really don’t need a bf right now even though I like the idea of Jeff and Me.

The idea of Me and Jeff sounded good and so did the thought. But the reality of us wasn’t so fairy tale like. But it doesn’t hurt anyone to dream about it. Which is all I do all the time.

dReAmS aRe sAiD tO HaVe mEaNiNg aNd i KnOw tHaT'S vErY tRuE fOr tHe mEaNiNg oF mY DrEaMiNg iS tHaT i'M iN LoVe WiTh yOu!

Today, for instance, he is all I can talk about. The only thing I can think about is how he broke my heart, no how he demolished my heart and tore it all into pieces then stomped all over it. Gah, I just want to break down and cry.

Last night at the play, Laura and Alex told me that at the beginning of the year they thought that me and *O**Y would go out because we are always smiling. I would never go out with him because he screws everything up.Thanks anyway, though♥

But now I don’t have anything to smile about because the only thing that made me smile is no longer in my life or matters to me anymore. The only guy that ever mattered to me is no longer important to me so what is the use of smiling and pretending that nothing ever happened. Because Jeff changed my life, he made me think twice about who I was.

You were the first guy to ever make me cry. To keep me crying. To make me have to put a mask of strength on to keep the world from knowing I was dying inside. It wasn't because I had you and you left, but because you were never mine to begin with.

I have nothing to smile about anymore, now that he is gone.

Letting go and moving on is not about forgetting about the good times you spent together, its about cherishing those special moments which truly touched your heart. learning that it just isn’t the right time for you...being happy for them when they find someone else...and not being scared to find another. for this is the true test of your love.

Right now, I am debating my options:

1) I can dislike Jeff and hate the one person that messed it all up.( if u dont no who, then ask?)

2) I can forgive Him

<33 Comment, Ne-one?

Here is what I am thinking right now…

I wish that I could turn back time. I wish that I could have went to another high school because if I hadn’t of went to Highland then I wouldn’t have met him and I wouldn’t be feeling this way. My heart is broken and it aches sOo bad, I just want all the pain to stop.

Sometimes, I wish that I could transfer schools and forget about the past. But that will never solve anything because he will always be in the corner of my mind.

Everyone tells me that there will be others that I will like just as much maybe even more, I just tell them that there is no one like the first. I thought that I was in love but im not anymore. Im not okay, nemore? I was fine this time last year and it was because I had never met Jeff and he was the one that made the difference in my life. I love him sOo much but I no that it will never be.

We all do the best we can…

Shout outs

Allyson- Gurl i am glad that we are going through this together and i wish u the best of luck with Josh and Stephen. We are a great friend that i can talk to about anything. Lov yah sOo much.♥ We have been through a lot this semester and it has only made our friendship stronger. I love yah to death gurl and hope that we are friends forever, because good friends are hard to come by these days. If u ever need a shoulder to cry on then just let me no and i will there for u in a hurry.

Brittany- Even though our friendship still has some rought spots that need to be worked out, i think that we will go back to where we were the best fo friends.

Shannon- "If i give u pretty enough words, can u paint me a picture?" I was like, " I can't paint." Hahaha, that was a good one and i will never forget my pancake eating boar. Lol we have so many memories that we have created in the little time that we have known each other. I will break his heart like he broke yours, if thats the last thing that i do. Sry, that i couldnt go to the movies, my parents were determined not to let me go. But i am always here for u and i hope that u will always be there 4 me. Just remember that if u ever need to talk then u can call me, no matter what time of day?Lov Ya Tonzz♥

Kristin- Wow, had sOo much fun at my house last nite and that phone call from Jeff made my night. ***** is really annoying with the theme question and i really need to give him a piece of my mind. The Grease play was awesome and i had fun carpooling with u, we should do it agian sometime in the near future. That baby was crying, the fake baby that is. Lov Ya to Pieces♥

Alex- We had a nice talk during the play and it really made me feel better. Yeah that one guy is ur type and u and Zack would make the most adorable couple. You need to meet him he reminds me of Adam in a way. But ur pic still looks like a horse and my pic was to close to face. Spinning around in South Point's parking lot a 9:20 was awesome and we should do ut again sometime. Kevin Gated reall does but he has blonde hair. Lov Ya Tonzz♥

Laura- Omg, u were trying ur best to get me and ***** to sit beside of each other, but it didnt woirk THANK GOD!! Plese dont send him that picture because then it would be black mail. LoL. I dont like him Laura and no Me and ***** would never go toghether because he gets on my nerves really bad.Lov Ya 4-Eva!♥

Hannah- I love ur church so much, so many cool ppl go there and i cant believe that u told him to come and stand with me while i was talking to Jeff. that would have been a disaster. But i Lov yah anywayz.

♥Love to Everyone, especially those that i have hurt in the past few days. ♥

<33 Lily Ann

The first time I saw you my heart began to beat fast. The feeling was so great I hoped that it would last. Sooner than I thought we became friends we talked on the phone and started to hang out. I wished it would never end. Then one time when we were talking we started to play a game. Asking each other dumb questions I thought it was lame. But then you asked me who I liked and said you needed to know. I didn’t answer for the thought of you letting go. I said im sorry I can’t tell you for my feelings for this guy are so strong because we’re best friends and me liking him seems just so wrong. He said he understood and knew how i felt, because his best friend also made his heart melt. And then it hit me, wait aren’t I his best friend? I didn’t know what to do.........it was silent for a long while, until he said you make me smile. He said just listen to what I have to say, I’ve been keeping it in for so long I hope you feel the same way. He started it off with an I’m sorry and said nothing will change so don’t worry. He said the first time I laid my eyes on you. I knew right then that it should be us two. Then when we became really good friends I thought your friendship was more important so I let my feelings end. I was doing fine until you said “its too bad we’re just friends” wow how happy I was to think maybe our friendship can bend. I love your smile and how you always make life worthwhile. I love your respect for yourself and others and how you're always so nice to my annoying lil’ brother. I love how you get so mad when you can’t say what you want to say. I love how you get me and the way you say my name. I love the fact that you're not afraid to cry. I love how you always tell the truth and never lie. I love how you look at me when its just us two. I love how you always manage to keep our friendship true. I love how you always manage to look so nice. I love how you never have to think twice. But most importantly I love how you’re my best friend, and how our friendship will never end. So there it goes that’s how I feel I want you to know those are all real. I promise I will never make you cry, I will never hurt you in any way for you to question why. I will always put you first in everything I do, because I LOVE YOU!!!!

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*..Talk is Cheap..* [18 Mar 2005|12:56pm]
[ mood | Why did i ever fall for Jeff? ]

I FEEL LIKE CRYING!!!(Tear!)

Omg..i am so mad because of lunch.  But break was funny because Kevin got shanked. I thought that i was over him but i guess not. Gah, i so wanted to be over him.  Neways- I am so ticked right now and so is Allyson...We are ticked at ourselves and them a few guys that we like or thought who was the one for us but i guess that they havent realized how special they are to us. Yall all no who i am talking about.

Matt- Thanks for being there for me and not telling Jeff and Cameron about our conversation the other night, I wish that i could move and start all over. or another option would to be gone forever.  But im not going to do either of those because they all lead to the same thing: DISAPPOINTMENT. I never told him how i felt and now i am realizing that he is just a guy and there will be plenty more..Once Again, thanks so much for everything.

I can't believe that i ever liked him or maybe even thought that he was the one. Ally thinks that i can steal him back but i dont want his sorry butt anymore. Even if i had the chance, i wouldnt because i realized that if he has caused me this miuch heartbreak then he is more likely to do it once more and i dont think that i can take anymore.So i am moving on and i dont like him nemore.

I’ve dealt with my ghosts and faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I’m at peace with myself
I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I’m movin’ on

I’ve lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they’re always the same
They mean no harm but it’s time that I face it
They’ll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don’t belong
I’m movin’ on

I’m movin’ on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there’s no guarentee’s, but I’m not alone
There comes a time in everyone’s life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn’t
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I’ve loved like I should but lived like
I shouldn’t
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I’m movin’ on

I’m movin’ on
I’m movin’ on

I wish that i could take back the feelings that he ever made me fill because he isnt nuthin but a big jerk who is immature and u hate him now even though deep down inside i still want to be with him. But i think that today at lunch made me realize that i shouldn't have liked him in the first place. I should have known that it was to true to be good and that it was false pretense.

Jeff- I am tired of all ur crap of saying this and saying that. Last Semester,  u should have stopped leading me own and Bobby was only being nice by talking to u about me. BUT U NO WHAT I DONT CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE AND IM NOT GONNA CRY BECAUSE UR NOT WORTH MY TEARS AND MY PRIDE. Soo what ur one guy, yesteday if u were the last guy on the planet yeah, i would love u, but today if u were the last guy on the planet, i wouldnt even give u the time of day. Today has made me realize that my feelings for u,  are no longer valid they have expired.Right now, i dont want to talk to u but i will eventually forgive u but first i have to forgive myself. Hate is such a strong word but i need to let out some of these feelings. Im not mad at u but i am at u, and if u dont no y then y were we ever friends in the first place. And the PROMISE  that u made me wasnt anything but lies but i dont care because i was in it to. But who gives a flying flip. If u have anything to say then u no where to find me. I hope that u and Sarah are Happy....Not.

Allyson- Thanks for being there for me and everything. I dont no what i would do without you.!,  I dont want to steal him back, she can have him, i dont care anymore. Good luck to both. Hes not that one thats suffering, I am. But all that doesnt matter to him because he never new how i feel. And if ***** had anything to do with this i will never be his friend.  But newayz- I think that u will get his trust back, soon. Because he needs it more that anything in the world.  But i dont care about guyz nemore i am stopping from this point because like u say" They are like Public Restrooms, they are either taken or full of crap. I cant even type right now because of all of this. Lov Ya♥

Brittany and Holly- Thanks for everything and i am glad that we are all friends now and everything.  Neways- Just want yall to no that i will always be there for yall whenever yall need me 24/7. I will be there in History, this time, i promise. Well i am going to go so that yall can post.

Shannon- He doesnt have any reasons just give him time. Lov Yah♥

Love to Everyone

Omg, i cant type at all today!

<33 Lily Ann

You have no idea how much pain you have felt until you look into the eyes of the one you've known and loved for so long and with so much, and then to see nothing...nothing but the glare of light...

Thank you for being that part of my life that i needed in order to survive once before. You were my rock, my sole comfort zone, my right arm. But as time ages, so do I; and with time, comes wisdom. I cant live under my rock anymore, and i cant look thru the rose colored glasses either. There is life beyond my comfort zone and u have been my inspiration to explore it. I still love you, yes, but im sorry that i cant be in love with you anymore. Mentally, ive known this for a while, but my physical is just now catching up. You've taught me to love, you've taught me to hate..there is nothing else for me to learn from you. I have to teach myself. Thank you for loving me, but most of all thank you for letting me love you. "...Maybe part of loving is learning to let go..."

I think im in love with you and you'd have to be dumb not to notice it. im sorry i feel like this but its so hard to deal with and the fact that you dont know is even harder. i wish you would tell me how you feel. all i can think about is that day we sat in starbucks for 3 hours and the way you smiled at me and that day i felt like you were mine and no one elses. even though now i know its not true. and that time when we hugged and we didnt let go for almost a whole minute, well it felt like forever to me. it felt like heaven to me. once again im sorry.

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I've given up Hope. [16 Mar 2005|09:06pm]
[ mood | Anticipating what to do? ]

This is my life motto:

Sometimes all you can do is walk away, hide your tears, and just pretend you're okay.

Wow, things have been going great and then I start thinking about guyz.. Not doing so well there because the guy that I like doesn’t like me but we are friends. I hurt so much inside because at the beginning of the year he liked me but I didn’t like him then. But now I like him and I have come to realize that it is just to late. And it makes me want to break down and cry..

I really like this guy ( all of you no who this guy is, if u don’t then ask) and we are really good friends but I want to be more than that. But I don’t always get what I want. I no that things have gotten rocky between us but all friendships come with their share of problems and I really want everything to work out between un, I just want it to go back to the way it was before everybody started interfering. I don’t care that people are trying to help but talking about me to u 24/7 is too much and I now that it annoys him. So if u are doing that, then please STOP!!I want him sOo bad even though I can’t. Maybe if I would have went with him those times then maybe things would be different. Gah, I am sOo stupid sometimes.

You were the first guy to ever make me cry. To keep me crying. To make me have to put a mask of strength on to keep the world from knowing I was dying inside. It wasn't because I had you and you left, but because you were never mine to begin with.♥

 

This is how I feel about that one guy!

At some point of life, you just love a person. There is no why or because. Doesn't matter how much you get hurt or if it'll work out. You just live for the moment, and love without thinking. And when it's over you can at least say it happened and nobody can take away what you shared with that special person. In your heart it'll live forever and he'll be always a part of you. even if you just shared a summer with him!

The s...p...a...c...e between the tears we cRieD is the **laughter** that keeps us coming back for more

Back to the guy thing.. Goodness this is all that I think about 24/7 night and day and I juss cry myself to sleep at night sometimes thinking of what might have been. Bobby’s right- this is the only thing that I think about. I need some one else to think about but I don’t think that I will get that desperate. Right Shannon? Wow, ur sister wanted to talk to me. She is sOo sweet. But what should I do..Should I go out with ***** or should I just play safe and keep on liking Jeff.<33 Comment, ne-one.

I need to stop thinking about him and I need to find someone new to like. I have three back-ups. But I don’t like any of them. So if u have any comments on what I should do then tell post them. I just need something else to think about.

A word of advice:

Your bf or gf wants you to stop hanging out with some of your friends, or you find yourself canceling occasions with your friends to be with your bf or gf.
Save time for your friends and keep all of them. It's your friends who will always be there for you. Who will have their arms open for you to run into when your bf or gf breaks your heart or you get in a fight. So hold your friends close because when you and your bf and gf get into a fight, you will have no where to turn...you'll be alone to deal with your own problems.

I like this quote because I think it’s cute:

BaBy Boy :
don't --> eVeR <--
worry if I'll be there
/becuz\ when it
comes to *YoU*
--> no one <--
can CoMpARe

U no what? I am tired of stressing out about this whole Jeff and Me thing I am going to stop worrying about it because ppl can do whatever they want to. I just need to get the courage to go and talk to him. Tomorrow.. is the day for that “Feel’s Like Today” But whatever I am going to juss pretend that I never met him and that we arent friends. Im gonna let the past be the past.

Well I will write more later.

♥Lily Ann

Here I am once agian, I'm torn into pieces. can't deny, it can't pretend, just thought you were the one. broken up, deep inside, but you won't get to see the tears i've cryed.

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Umm... [16 Mar 2005|01:13pm]
[ mood | Annoyed by all this talk.. ]

Sry, all my posts are messed up sOo u might be a little confused.

Everything is great except for a few self-centered people.. Anna no's who...

Newayz- Heres a breif summary of today's happenings:

English- was great! We read the Raven poem and i dont get it but class was fun.. Oh yeah, we learned some sign language from our Helen Keller projects.

Music Apprecitation- We were in the Library today. Me and Brandon were on one computer and it was sOO much fun even though we had no clue what we were doing. We had a nice little conversation about some special ones.. Mac was around that one person all day and nobody wanted to talk him because they cant stand that person that he was hanging around..but i think that he is getting better. But i don't care.

Science- I am in there right now. So i dont have anything to put..

History- Havent' made it that far!♥

Allyson- Well i think that u should give Josh a chance because he is nice and seems to really like u. She thinks that u should go out with him because it will help her get hooked up with u no who. Allyson, u no what im talking about. Newayz- i think that u shoulg go out with whoever that u want to go out with. U no who is the best choice...*******..even though he is talking u should go for it because he is really nice and if u can trust him then thats all that matters. Your confusing me with all this code talk. Oreo- haha..liking the name. lol. always the same on think when we make plans.We have to decide what we are doing this summer and we have to make the guest list. I dont no what we do but i no some ppl who arent on iut because of their ****. Well, i will write more later. Lov Yah Gurl.♥

Kristin- Wow, omg i cant believe that she told everybody that so that she would have friends. That is sOO funny. I looked today, and yeah he does have nice body.LoL. Well our hangout sopt use to be fun and till some ppl came but we will deal with that later.Its not that big of a deal but thats were we go to talk about **** and your Him..They get on my nerves and i cant believe that u are on her frienz list when u cant stand her. And what Nicole told u this mornign about u having them first.she is sOO right, so dont worry about it. Umm. well i will finsh this later. So, she took ur idea.. Oops. Lov Yah♥

<33 Ally, Kristin, Anna, Emily, Holly, Brittany, Shannon, Ashley, Alex, Kayla, Mac, Brandon, Matt, Chris, Bobby (even though u are making matters worse), Jeff, Cameron, And Matt M. I no that i left some out but i will add them later.

<33 Lily Ann

*Having Boy troubles.

Ps. Ally- she thinks that *** isnt hot but she thinks that ******* is. She's got it backwards. Anyway we all no who oreo is.... My brother..LoL

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What If ♥ [16 Mar 2005|01:12pm]
[ mood | What If?? ]

Gah, i have been playing that WHAT IF game...... I can't stop regreting some of the things that i did or things that i didnt do...

 

For example, last semester when Jeff invitied me to go to the lake with him, What if i would have went, what wouldve happened. Would things be different!! Maybe if i would've went maybe things would have worked out differently. Maybe they would have worked out like i wanted them to and i want them to but i think that i had moved on because i am getting the imoression that i shouldn't like him due to some rumors..

 

But remember:

 

-:- RumoRz r as FAKE as tha PpL thAt sPreAd dEm-:-

 

This is my song and it describes exaclty how i feel.

 

I won't talk

I won't breathe

I won't move till you finally see

That you belong with me

 

You might think I don't look

But deep inside the corner of my mind

I'm attatched to you

mmmm

 

I'm weak, it's true

Cause I'm afraid to know the answer

Do you want me too?

Cause my heart keeps falling faster

 

[chorus]

I've waited all my life to cross this line

To the only thing that's true

So I will not hide

It's time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

 

You don't know what you do

Everytime you walk into the room

I'm afraid to move

 

I'm weak, it's true

I'm just scared to know the ending

Do you see me too?

Do you even know you met me?

 

[Chorus]

I've waited all my life to cross this line

To the only thing thats true

So I will not hide

It's time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

 

I know when I go

I'll be on my way to you

The way that's true

 

[chorus]

I've waited all my life to cross this line

To the only thing thats true

So I will not hide

It's time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

 

Well i have to go and do some definitions for Science but i have a lot to post later on like tomorrow.

 

<33 Lily Ann♥

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.:*Everything and some quotes*:. [15 Mar 2005|01:37pm]

○°Hey Hey°○

 

 UNC TARHEELS WON ON FRIDAY!!

 

 Today has been great and it couldn’t get any better.

 

 English- We had Mr. Tally and he seems to be really nice but he wouldn’t let

us use the computer even though I really needed to. But oh Well, I guess that

he has his reasons. We have this Helen Keller thing do on Tuesday and I haven’t even started so I guess that I have my weekend planned out ♥for me. She gives us too much homework.♥

 

 Music Appreciation- This class is sOo boring but at least I have Mac and

Brandon in there with me. Today was sOo funnie because Mac got in trouble and Mr. Rogers made him sit in the front of the exit doors till ?the end of class and Mac was making all these gestures and I was laughing sOo hard.?

 

Science- We got our benchmarks back today and I did well but I could have

done better, if u ask me?? Holly, Ally, Britt, and Me haven’t been

fighting any since Smruti is out of the picture and I am glad because

 •now we are truly becoming friends again.•

 

History- We took a test today and I think that I did good because I found all

of the answers in the book but I will see on Monday!!

 

-:- RumoRz r as FAKE as tha PpL thAt sPreAd dEm-:-

 

I thought that I had moved on with the Jeff situation but I guess

that I haven’t even though I really want to and I no that I need to. I did

move on for a while but deep down inside of me sumthing just urges me to keep

liking him because maybe things could work out after all. I no that things will

never work out between us because people keep trying to interfere and they

only end up making matters worse so STAY OUT OF IT! I don’t care if my friends

try to help because they are my friends. Whenever I look at him or talk 2 him I get butterflies in my stomach and I have never felt this way about a guy before and I like the feeling but I just don’t have the courage to tell him how I feel.

 

*Someday your prince charming will come. Mine just took a wrong turn, got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for directions.

 

..One day I hope that I find my prince charming..

 

Every gurl wants *..prince charming..*

and while he may be nice and all...

I [ w A n T a ] guy who will

come up from » behind « and

put his arms (( aRoUnD )) me

and [ * whIspEr * ] in my ear

that he ».» LoVeS mE «.«

and he ( ( lAyS aWaKe ) ) at night, just

* T. h. I. n. K. i. N. g. * about me

a guy who'll [[ CaLl ]] at like..

¤ 3 a.M. ¤ just to « TeLl mE »

h0w much he .|. mISsEs me .|.

he'd come over just .^.aFtEr.^. we

get ::oFf:: the P h O n E ...

because he wants *to* know how

I'm [ R. .e. .A. .l. .L. .y ] doing..

because i .-.said.-. i was » fInE «

but we b0tH know i was l Y i N g

he'd {.. kIsS ..} me on my forehead

*aNd* tell me ::eVeRyThInGs::

gunna be [[ A. l. R. .i. .G. .h. .T ]]

He may not be *.prince charming.*

to [ a n y o n e * e l s e ]

but in my ((eyes)).. he'd fit the part

 

 

I thought we were best friends, as best friends could be, I was there 4

her and she was there 4 me. Then one day something happened something that

couldn’t be, she had made new friends and forgotten about me. Till this day she

is in my heart, and even though we are not together, we will never be apart.

 

 **Except im the one that got new friends**

 I wish that everything could go back to NORMAL!

 

 

*These 2 quotes describe how I feel about HIM!

 

 I MISS YOU like C R A Z Y

cant get you off my m i n d

Ur everything I ever wanted

the prince I was hoping 2 find

but now I have to let GO

and it Hurts so much inside

I cry myself to sleep at night

feels like a part of me has died

I loved you with all my heart

but I guess we couldn’t be

who knows what tomorrow hold

maybe you'll finally love me

But till that time comes

I'll give you your space

though I will always remember

the warmth of your sweet embrace

 

I've waited and waited for you to be my prince charming and carry me away. and now that you've let that other girl sit beside you on your horse well you should know, I’m still waiting.

 

Allyson- I have juss now realized that if me and Lauren wouldn’t have been

mad at each other then we would have never became friends. I guess that my good friendship with Lauren was hindering me from making great friends like you, Shannon, Ashley, Alex, Kristin, and many more. I am thankful that we have become friends. We can relate to each other because we are both feeling the same way about the ones that we like or maybe even love. And I don’t want to fall in love with him this way and neither do u. I hope that everything works

out for the best between you and him.

 

My perfect prince charming asks me how im doing and I say im fine.. but then a moment later he

calls me and asks me

what’s wrong. he > ...knows...

 

Brittany- Sry, that i left u out the first time and i swear i thought that i did put u in there.  I hope that everything works out with u and Him!! Well i guess that im wrong.  Well i got to go.. Talk to u later. Lov Yah♥

 

 

 

 Holly- Even thought we weren’t realty friends to begin with e\we have grown to be friends and u are a great friend to have and I no that u will always be there for me.

 

 

 

Jonny- U no that I was just kidding with the whole prank phone call, we just wanted to have a little fun and this was the only way and it sure was fun. I really thought that u were mad and Tyler really is neutral and I hope that u and Shannon go back to normal. I better be on ur favorite’s list.

 

 "A stranger stabs you in the front; a friend stabs you in the back; a boyfriend stabs you in the heart, but best friends only poke each other with straws."

 

 

 <33 Lily Ann

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°Haven't posted in a while° [09 Mar 2005|01:08pm]
[ mood | Happy♥ ]

°○°Hey Hey°○°

Sry that i havent been posting lately, its not that i dont want i just dont have time during the weekdays, but i will catch yall all up on what has been happening on my side of the neighborhood.

I am in science right now and i am sOo flippin bored. We got out exam back and i got like a 72 on it and i didn't do so hot. Nobocdy at my table did, and i wonder why?? We are always on the computer and because we never pay attention. He hates us all the wayY!! I think!! But this class isnt to bad because i get to have lunch with my friends.

Let's See- Today, has been really good and i am in a really good mood. If u wanna no Y just ask?¿?

English Ap Prep- It went well. Me and Spencer argued over Mac's first name. I was right!! As always!! We did some kind of Shrink Lit thinkg were we have to write a poem. sOo, me, Hannah, and, Spencer decided to use our tickets, sOo we dont have to do it, BooYaa!! Thats the gayest word ever but i like it. LoL

Music Appreciation- Boring, as always! We didn't do anything but watch Fantasia.  It was boring but it was better than one of his lectures. LoL Me and Mac are having troubles. lol- Allyson.

Science- Well, i am in there and we are going over the exam and i did but but then again i did better then the person who got 36!! Im so relieved that it wasn't me.

History- Haven't got there yet but i think that it will be good. 

This afternoon I am going home with Hannah and we are going to have sOo much fun, i juss can't wait!  Hannah is sOo nice and i think that we will have fuNn at the church because a lot of people go there that i now and i haven't seen them in a long time.

Lunch- It went good but they call Ally, Mayonnaise ((lol, long story)) and they say that i am as dumb as Paris Hilton. Whatever, I told Cameron that ever since Jeff found out that i liked him he acted like a jerk and Cameron told him. that made me sOo mad. But, Ne-Wayz i am tired of liking him sOo i think that for now i have really moved on even though i said that about a week ago!! I think that i really have this time but in about a week, i will probably like him once again but i dont want to.  He is really nice and all but he isnt worth it!♥!

<33 to Ally, Mac,  Brittany, Bennett, Holly, Rusty, Hannah, Laura, Alex, Eddie, Krisitn, Ashley, Shannon, Alex, Anna, Jeff , Bobby, Matt, Cameron, Brandon, Joey, Zack, Chris, John, Kevin, Ryan, Jonathon, Tyler, and many more but i dont have time to list them.

A special heart goes out to the following ppl:

Guyz <33333 Jeff, Mac, Bennett, Rusty, Zack, and Bobby!!

Gurl <33333 Lily, Ally, Brittany, Holly, Alex, and Anna!!

Well i have to go, talk to yall later. Leave some comments.

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.:*Short and Sweet*:. [07 Mar 2005|01:20pm]
[ mood | Rushed by Time ]

This is gonna be short and kinda sweet.

Shan-Ashley-Alex- Had a great time this weekend, i want to do it again sumtime. that prank call was awesome and we shoud do it again simetime. Many insiders but i dont have time tpo put them cause i am in Science class.

Umm. I hate people who think that they are better than others such as _____. I cant name any names but it is nobody in here. Shannon and Allyson no who i am talking about. HaHa. she deserves it!!!!

Well i will write more later tonite or either tomorrow.

<33 Lily

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♥ Nuthing Much ♥ [04 Mar 2005|01:34pm]
[ mood | The earth is round! ]

I am Science right now. We just finished a quiz on Chapter 11 and i no that i failed it but hey, at least i got 20 points extra credit, i think.

Umm lets see today has been pretty boring.

English- We had mythology day and i was Aphrodite and then Spencer and Ryan brought grape juice and cheese and me and ashley brought Cupcakes, and then Shannon and Alex brought animal crackers. It was good and me and Ashley think that we passed, we should of because our tri-fold was all color coordianted. Wow, it was perty.

Music Appreciation- Umm lets see we listened to music and then me and Mac wrote and note and then he had to go to the guidance office and then he came back and we started writing again. He thinks that one of my enemy's is a ***** but i do too, so all is good. He said that she wasn't ugly but she wasn't good looking, so doesnt that mean the same thing as the first one... Umm i dont no if u have any comments let me no. <33.... Im not saying nething about her because we are juss not on good terms right now but i dont care and then we are and then we arent. So, Whatever!!!!!!!! Neways he said that he couldnt stand her and that she did not seem like a very nice person to him but he doesn't really now him and im glad that he doesnt because he will see who she really is and then he will turn against her completely. I think it's funny and sOo does Allyson. Maybe all will work out. I sure do hope sOo.

Science- Has been interesting we found out the difference between a kiss and then a Kiss-Kisss! WoW- dont no where that one came from.

LUNCH- I found out that the world is round and that it has no ending point. I thought that it was oval, but oh well! Who Care's i dont think that it will be on the final exam. Mayonnaise! Lol Allyson!

Well i got to go the bell is about to ring.

Shannon- I will be at ur house tonite at 6:00. Cant't Wait,. it is. gonna be sOo much funn.

<33 I love ****

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♥Umm..nothing better to do ♥ [03 Mar 2005|01:43pm]
[ mood | Huh?♥ ]

I am currenty in Science with Brittany, Allyson, and Holly and it is sOo boring and i have no clue what we are talking about, and neither does nebody else at my table, oOOhh well, i guess that we will all fail the quiz 2morrow.

But ne-way lets get to the subject of today's writtings:

Umm.. i am tired of all the drama and crap that is going around school when most of it isn't true and then some of it is. you just have to no what we are talking about but newayz i guess that it will be over soon because everything is looking better. I hope sOo because i am tired of it and we all need to be friends and that will make the world a easier place.

Lunch was grate today but lunch is always grate :}. I juss now got the whole smiley face thing-a-majigger! Today at lucnh everybody lookedat my journal, i dont no y but they did.

I love ****!!!

Lily Ann

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.:*I need to stop thinking about them*:. [01 Mar 2005|01:24pm]
[ mood | Bored ♥ ]

♥ Hey yall i am in Science and i am bored to death we are talking about non and renewable resources.

Allyson, Mac, and I are sendind text messages and i think that he is mad?>? Because me and allyson were juss kidding with homw about the whole ride home thing. He is cool though!

Well i am going to go i juss got bored and decided to post.

<3333 To everyone!

.:**:. Lily Ann .:**:.

I want all of this drama to end between everybody.. I thought that we were all mature young adults. Guess not, Huh.. <33 Comment ne-one! ♥

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.:*Anything to get my mind off of him*:. [28 Feb 2005|09:52pm]
[ mood | LoOvin my great friends ]

I wrote this really good entry earlier and it was really good. When I clicked update it went Bam and then everything was deleted and now I am sOo mad. I am gonna try to write it all over again but it isn’t going to be very long.

Here is a summary:

I have realized that life still goes on even when I lose some ppl that u once thought were ur friends. I am glad that me and Lauren have taken a break and that my life doesn’t revolve around her and that now I can move on to my other friends and still be just as happy as I used to be. Even though I cry when I think about all this was Lauren. How can she be mad about sumthing sOo small? Nobody is perfect and nobody ever will be!! And the thing with Jeff I guess that it is better to forgive than to forget, so that is what I have decided to do and I am gonna cope with that decision and make the best of it. Even though I no that things will never be the same between us ever again and I am ready for this whole thing to blow over and to move on to the next thing that is lined up for me. But I am gonna stop caring and I am gonna focus on myself. Even though I am gonna miss hanging out with Lauren I also no that I have some more great friends to hang out with all though they will never replace all of me and Lauren’s memories. And on the matter with Jeff- I don’t care, I juss want things to be like they were last semester were we talked all the time and we were always inviting each other places, I miss that and I want It back.. I wish with all my heart that I could take some things that I said back even though I no that I can’t. And Jeff if u are reading this, I want u to no that I am sorry about everything that has happened between us over the last few months. I juss want it all back and I want too forget these last few weeks. I know that I am gonna miss being friends with Lauren but I have other friends that I can have fun with and we can create memories. I have to hold myself back from crying when I start thinking about Lauren and Jeff. I miss all of them sOo much!

I am glad that I have all these great friends to help me through all of this:

Shannon- ur are the only one that gets my situation because u are going through the same thing with ur friends, but I no that in a few days it will all be back to normal and I am gonna face the fact that he is no longer there for me and neither is Lauren. I am glad in some ways and then I am regretful in some. I guess our lil saying is true “I guess guys pick the gurls that they no less about, sOo that they will be easier to throw away.” I hope that’s how it guess. But I really want to tell him how I feel because I have never felt this way about someone b4 and no that I do I like the feeling and I want it to last but when I go to call him I never get the numbers dialed. We both need a starting point and I think that it is time for us to create a starting point. I no that I really need to tell him but when I start to tell him I get all twisted up inside and I juss walk away wondering what would have happened if I would have told him. But thanks for always being there for me, no matter what im going through chick and I wish u the best with him. Lov Yah

Brittany and Holly- I am glad that we all have worked out most of our differences and I want us to go through the daYys like we did today. Today was great! And this is to Brittany, whoever the *HIM* is in ur life right now I hope that everything works out the way that u would like it to and no matter what happens I am here for u 24/7 and the same goes for Holly. I hope that yall are still gonna be here for me when I grow gray and old. Lov yall to Death. Thanks for everything~!*

Allyson- Gah, gurl we have gotten close and I am glad because ur a like my big sister. I think that our guys were put here for a reason to show us that we have many things that we should cherish. I really don’t want to be mad at my *Him* but I cant help not to be even though I should tell him how I really feel but I juss can’t make myself do it. And *Ur Him* is in ur life for a special reason and I think that u should tell him how u feel about him because in a few months she will be history and u will be the that will be there to comfort and to hold him. But im moving on , even though I don’t want to, but I think that it is for the best. If u ever need me u better no that I am here for u forever and always. Lov ya and thanks 4 everything. Like Matt said at lunch today, What doesn’t kill us, only makes us stronger.”

Bobby- U have been here with me through thick and thin and ur are simply the greatest and ur always there when I need someone to talk to. I am glad that I met u this were and Yes, I will help u if u help me and I no that she shouldn’t be mad but I am tired of forgiving her sOo I am calling it quits and I don’t care nemore. I juss want u to no that I am here for u whenever u need me and I mean anytime. Thanks for being there and understanding me when nobody else does.

I am sOo lucky to have all of u~!*

Much LoOvin to Anna, Ashley, Brittany, Holly, Kristin, Shannon, Allyson, Jeff, Mac, Bobby, Alex W., Laura, Eddie, Chris, Brandon, Jonathon, Spencer, Tyler, Katie, Victoria, Josh, Mike, Alex R., and Rusty.. I no that I 4-got some but u will be on here next time.

~!*My life is like a box of chocolates because u don’t know what u are going to get until u open the box, or in my case, until I step over the line.*!~

Lov Everyone.

<333 Lily Ann~!*

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Whatever~!* [28 Feb 2005|12:55pm]
[ mood | Whatever! ]

Well, today has been good. In first periond, we played a game on the Odyssey. In second, me and Mac talked and then we watched some kind of opera, and it sucked. Umm i am in third right now and i am not very happy. Lunch went well except for the fact that i strongly dislike one person, right now. But i guess that i wont be mad at him nemore after all this blows over.Umm...i am mad at him right now because of some stuff he did and because that he always starts stuff. Ever since he found out that i like him or did like him he is acting all different. But i dont care nemore nut i really want this to work out (between me and him). Gah, i am sOo bored~!*

Shannon- Thanks for everything and im glad that we have became friends this semester and Oompa didn't sit with us today.. Im Sorry!

Brittany- We are all actually getting along today and that is great. I juss want to apologize for everything that i have said or done because i am really sorry! And i really want to be freinds again cause i have really missed all of yall.

Holly- Even though we werent that close when we use to be all friends
I am glad that we are friends now.. Even though we stil have some differences to work out!

I will write more later when i have time.

Right now i am sending text messages to Mac and Kristin and Mac called me and he was like Hello, and i didnt even no that he called and everybody at my table heard it!!

Lov Ya

<3 Lily Ann

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Im moving on~!* [27 Feb 2005|03:59pm]
[ mood | Im so over Him ]

!...!Hey yall, right now I am down at Anna's. We are getting ready to watch some movies and then who no's what??

Umm i juss went to tell everyone that i am over Jeff and i have moved on, even if if dont want too.

I aslo am glad to have faithful friends like Ashley, Anna, Kristin, Shannon, and Allyson, Mac, Brittany, Holly,Bobby, and Smruti.

I am regretful to no longer be friends with Lauren, but i realized that life goes on..

And on the matter of Jeff- i am sOo over him because of the way that he has been acting these past few days ever since he found out the i like or liked him(( doesnt matter which one cause it's over)) and i really liked him too, but i guess that it wasn't meant to be. And if sometime in the near future, i change my mind then i will be sure to let everybody no!! But i really, i mean really liked him!! But i dont no if he liked me like i liked him.. OOH WELL!...!

Anna- i am glad that we had that talk this afternoon and it made my daYy a whole lot better.

Lily Ann

<3 To everyone that has been there for me and even those who haven't been there for me!

Much LoOvin to all of my friends.

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A Clean Slate~!* [27 Feb 2005|11:10am]
[ mood | Stressed -n-Thinking ]

Im tired of everything...It will only get better from here though, hopefully.
I miss all my friends at other schools, a lot! I have been thinking a lot about me and my life and I really dont no what is going on, im sOo lost, as always!!LoL..

-Newayz-

This weekend I had a blast. Friday after school Ashley and Kristin came over and we went and jumped on the trampoline and these 5th graders were on there and they were like yall can jump with us if yall promise not to scream like girls, come one now, we are GIRLS!! Then they were like one dayY, yall are gonna be wrinkly, fat,ugly, and then nobody will like yall. Then we got tired of them and Mac called me from the fire department and I talked to him and then Bobby called and we talked to him. We also talked to Allyson for a long time, had sOo much fun on the phone with her!Allyson,He does gives the best Hug~!* After that we blew up the mattress and we watched some movies. We had like 20 to watch but we only watched like 7. Then we decorated some pizza boxes with all the ppl we like and there is a lot.

Here are some of our many insiderz:
-I wanna BlowFish!! Don't ask
-Yearbook pictures!!!-
-Cookie dough was yummy and now we are gonna get salmonella!!!!-
-Happy ppl eat, Ashley left out the last part of the sentence!!!!!-
-It's not Hello kitty but it's Kitty..Lol!!!!!!-
-I didn't no that we lived in America!!!!!!!-
-One daYy we are gonna be fat, ugly, and wrinkly!!!!!!!!-
-We are all smoking the same thing.!!!!!!!!!-
-In our own little worlds, escpecially Ashley and I!!!!!!!!!!-

.:*Had so much fun with yall gurls but i wish that Allyson and Shannon could've been there*:.

!.!.!.!Lauren- Im sry, I didn't mean to ditch you. People make mistakes, were not perfect.!.!.!

~!*Shannon- Thanks for being there for me and im not gonna stress out about her because I don't care anymore... But thanks again. I had sOo much fun with yall at the movies. 123 im back.. where do we get this stuff. My boar ate pancakes this morning and tyler probably ate pancakes, so that means that we all ate in the pancake family. Fun times Chick!!! There is a time and place for everything! Cant wait for Monday at lunch. Let's burst a bubble. I have no idea where that came from!! Thanks for helping me with my journal and it is awesome. Lov ya Chick, write more later*!~

<3 To everyone thats been there for me and even to those who havent.

Lily Ann

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